If this album did not hit you in some way, you have a heart of stone. West’s life was definitely filled with heartbreak: the loss of his manager mother and a broken engagement all within a nine-month span. He told MTV the album was“ a little bit of autotune and a whole lot of f*cked up life.”
One song in particular hits me: “Paranoid.” It is perhaps the happiest tune on the album and a favorite among my friends. The song is about a paranoid girlfriend who worries her boyfriend is cheating and annoys her man with her behavior. The words describe every single thing my ex-boyfriend told me about his relations with girls and my paranoia. Specifically these lyrics:
All of the time you wanna complain about the nights alone
So now you’re here with me show some gratitude leave the attitude way back at home
describe perfectly what my ex and I would go through. There were past rumors about his supposed infidelity and he was dishonest when it came to his whereabouts involving girls (probably a defense mechanism to combat my suffocating paranoia). Just like Kanye’s girl in the song, I checked through Mr. Ex’s phone and whatnot to find evidence of his dishonesty. Recently we had a big fight due to my paranoia of him cheating on me.
Obviously, the song is pretty personal. I am the girl Kanye is describing.
Another example is “RoboCop.”
Checking everything like I'm on parole
Up late night like she on patrol
I told her there’s some things she don't need to know
She never let it go (ooo ohh)
The lyric, “There’s some things she don’t need to know” is exactly a line my ex told me. It wasn’t very comforting at all.
The CD is technically pretty good although it received mixed reviews (Rolling Stone only gave it 3.5 stars; Huffington Post called it depressing). It is just way too heavy for me. I’m into conscious hip-hop as much as the next red, black and green flag wearer but listening to this album makes me want to cuddle with good ole Mr. Daniels.
Beyond my feelings, I think West is going to make emo hip-hop cool. This is great—we need more records that let the world know brown skin men have actual feelings.